Thursday, August 28, 2008

Tough Decision

The Beans spent a lot of time talking to the vet, until they were confident the wobbling is due to the lymphoma in my nervous system. Well, they are indeed confident of this. They also spent a lot of time talking to each other, the vet, and close friends, before deciding that I should not continue chemo. The Vet felt it would be worth a try, but did advise that me getting more than 3 months was unlikely, and once this drug stopped working, it would basically be all over.
Well, this seemed like a lot to put me through for 3 more months at most, probably on average more like 6 weeks, and really, while certainly better than before we started chemo, my quality of life never was what it was before the cancer. I was relatively happy, but I was nauseaus alot, and kinda tired, and I had to go to the vet and get medicines all the time. This isn't really a great way to live a life. Please note that if you are a bean considering chemo for your cat, don't just rely on me. These extra months were definitely worth it. Also, some cats don't hate the vet as much, and some cats tolerate chemo even better than I did. So all three of us talked it over (yes, they asked me. I might not really speak English, but when it comes to decisions like this, cats do communicate somehow) and decided that it is time to stop the chemo.
I will stay on most of my oral medicines at home until the time is near, and then about a week from now, maybe sooner, maybe later, I will probably need to be helped to the bridge. For now, the chemo from Monday and the steroid being doubled have stabilized me, but this will not last long.
I love you guys so much. I've already gotten TONS of submissions for this week's contest. I really appreciate that!

Oh, and one sweet thing I want to share. Last night before bed I snuggled up with Mom and Dad, and all three of us touched the tips of our noses together at the same time and stayed like that for about a minute or two. It was a really really special moment. I also let Mom and Dad snuggle and hold me for much of the night again. I left around 1am, but we got lots of cuddling in. And I even woke them up around 6 as usual for breakfast! I'm not gone yet!!

Love,
Texas

39 comments:

Kaze, Latte, & Chase said...

Oh Texas we understand this decision and know its been made with love and consideration of all factors. We want you to know we'll be with you until the end no matter what! I know your beans love you but we do too!

Latte

Cat-a-holic, Laila and Minchie said...

We understand too. We are all here for you and your mommie and daddy for any support they need. We are firm believers in quality of life. Momma just hates that "C" word!

(((HUGS)))to you all!

Laila and Minchie and mom Peggy

PB 'n J said...

It's a hard decision to make, Mommy and Daddy have had to do it twice. Your Mommy and Daddy are doing what's best for you - even though they will be heart broken. We will be with you till the end dear friend.

Purrs and Hugs to all of you,
Pearl, Bert, Jake and Mommy

Magoo, Smudge, Bella & Dolce said...

The greatest gift is knowing when it is time to say goodbye.

Our thoughts and purrayers are with at this difficult time.

Chance said...

We arr all reely glad dat yoo iz gonna get jus a few mor days of snuggles an luv befor yoo will need ta leev us. I will puurrr an pray dat dey arr payn free an happie days fur all uf yoo.

HotMBC said...

It is a hard decision, Texas, and we respect it. We respect you and your bean for making the best decision yall can for you. And we respect your beans a lot more for talking it over with you, instead of just assuming what you think. We may not speak english out loud, but yep we do communicate. You are very brave to face going on to the Bridge instead of hanging on and probably feeling super icky from more chemo. We'll keep purring and purring for you that you have a real good and long a time as you can
It sounds like you and your beans had a sweet night, and that's great.
Luv and Purrrrrrrrrrrrs,
Pepi and the rest of the Hotties

Karen & Gerard Zemek said...

Oh, it's so sad a time but at least you have a good home and lots of loving. I don't blame you for wanting to quit the chemo. Just enjoy the precious time you have left as much as possible. Love your pictures too!

The Island Cats said...

Texas,
We know this was a hard decision for you and your mom and dad to make. We want you to know that we are there for you...we love you, Texas!

Wally, Ernie & Zoey

Charlemagne and Tamar said...

Oh, Texas. Our kitty hearts are just breaking at the news.

We know that your mommy and daddy are doing the right thing and we're so glad that they asked you what you thought.

Sending purrs and snuggles for you and your parents,

Charlemagne and Tamar
(and Momma Colleen)

Jan's Funny Farm said...

This is a decision each family has to make on their own, based on individual circumstances. And we know this decision has been made out of love.

We echo Chance's comment. We hope whatever time you have together is happy and pain free!

Alasandra said...

We are here for you Texas. ~(Hugs & purrs) Socks, Scylla & Charybdis

Castle said...

Oh Texie...we will miss you so, so much but you will be free of this nasty, horrid illness. Your beans have given you the greatest gift of love and they will remember you always.

I promise you that Stormie will be waiting for at The Bridge...you are her closest friend from the Lymphoma Group, you are very special to us.

We are sending you many purrs deay boy...we will be by your side until it is your time to leave us x

Sen and Tom said...

We all love you, Texas, and we will all be with you always.

Purrs, licks and hugs to you and yours.

Sen-Chan. Tom and #1

ML said...

Texas, you are a very special kitty and we are all glad to have had a chance to know you.
We will miss you, you lovely, brave, fractious cat so much, more than you can know.
Love and Purrs,
KC, Missy Blue Eyes, Faith Boomerang, Sol, BJ, Smokey & Mommie ML

Name: Mr. Hendrix said...

oh Texas, you and your beans are very brave and loving to have done all you did and to have made this decision.
We are your friends forever and you will be in our thoughts and prayers.
Keep waking up your beans buddy! You should be able to eat whatever you want whenever you want. You're such a good friend. puuurrrrrrrrss

Kellykat said...

Texas, you are such a brave cat. We are sorry to hear that the end is near but we know you made the right choice for you. We love you and will be with you til the end.
Purrrrs,
Stryder, Scotchy & Sugar

Sweet Praline said...

Oh, Texas. Mom's eyes are leaking and she is at work! We understand this decision and know it was tough for all involved. We will keep sending special purrayers for you and your mom and dad.

I will miss you, but will see you again someday at the bridge.

Praline

Sabrina, Sam and Simon said...

Texas, we love you, and you will live on in all of our hearts. We too will be with you until the end, dear furriend ...
Hugs, purrs and headbutts,
Sabrina, Sam, Simon and Momma Jan

Furkidsmom said...

(((Texas))) We're sad to read this, but we know that you and your beans would only make a decision based on your love for each other. We're glad you got some quality snuggle time. Our eyes are leaking and we are purraying for as much good time as possible.

Sniffie and the Florida Furkids

The Crew said...

Oh my, Mom's eyes are leaking so bad she can hardly type for me. Texas, we know your family will do what's best for you.

Parker said...

We understand the decision Texas. it is clear that your beans want to give you quality and love. And that's the most important thing of all!
Smooches!

Kikky said...

You're a good brave boy, Texas. We're all purring for you real hard. I purray you end up like the wonder boy that my little Buggy was. He was diagnosed with liver cancer and told 6 months without treatment, 9 months to a year with it. Since he was already a teenager, we decided to see what happened and he decided to live another 3 years without the treatment.

Mickey said...

Purrs Texas.
I know you will be making lots more memories now.
We will be here for you and for your Mom & Dad. We will be there also when the time comes for you to go. There will be so many friends waiting at the Bridge for you :)
((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))
Purrs Mickey,Georgia & Tillie

T'Abby Normal said...

Texas,
We have enjoyed you immensely and learned much from you in the too-short time we have known you. We are glad to hear that you all made this decision together.
We love you!

Your friends always,
Abby Normal & Stygia

the 4 Bs said...

hi Texas, we heard about you from Tom and Sen-Chan and we just wanted to come visit. you are a very brave cat and your beans are strong and brave too. we are holding you all in our thoughts and hearts.

woofs.

Forty Paws said...

Bless your heart Texas. You've been such a brave lad through all of this. It must be very hard, and we're sure it is hard on your Mom & Dad. We're sending you tons of purrs and purrayers.

Luf, Us

Petey said...

Hi Texas,

We're friends of Tom and Sen-Chan's and we just wanted to send you lots of love and head bumps and purrs. And another barrelful for your beans.

Your pals,

Petey and Mica

The Cat Realm said...

Texas - we love you and are fully supportive of your and your family's decision. Life is never easy but you are surrounded by love and that is the most important thing ever.
We hope you and your humans will have some more wonderful days together. We will think of you and stop by in the next days and send purrs all the time.
The Cat Realm

Alexi said...

We understand, too. We've been through this. Tell your mom and dad we're here for them and we'll keep purring and purraying for you and them!

Kimo and Sabi said...

Texas -
We unnerstands this is a furry difficult time fer yer beans. Our Mommakitty hadded to help her last Tuxie to da bridge when he gotted lymphoma and she hadded leaky eyes fer a long time. You seem to have a good attitude about it all and we knows yer last days will be filled wif luv. Yer beans will miss you, but remember . . . you will all see each other again someday on da other side of da bridge. Peace bruther - peace to you and yer fambly. Purrrs.

Whicky Wuudler said...

Texie, you are a brave little fella and I do understand how hard it is to go through all you have and the decision you and your beans have made. I send you all love and purrs. You are one very loved little kitty.

Karen Jo said...

Oh, Texas, this is such sad news. I am sure that you and your beans are making the right decision for you, as hard as it is. I hope that the time you have left is as pain-free as possible. I know that it will be full of love and cuddles.

MISS PEACH ~(^.^)~ said...

Brave darling Texas...I am so happy you three had this special moment last night...these are the true moments that mean so much to the heart. A great comfort...

Jackie said...

We will miss you Texas. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.It is a hard decision to make, but it has been done with love for you. Purrrrrs and (((hugs)))

Milo said...

Texas - you are a brave and wonderful boy and I'm so sorry to hear how ill you've become.

I know that the decision your mom & dad have made with you - must have been very hard on you all - but it feels like the right thing to do. I hope my mom & dad are this brave if my quality of life is ever at stake.

You're very loved, I can tell that - and as you set out towards the rainbow bridge me and my mom and dad send you and your family all our love and purrayers.

Take care, Texas.

Love Milo xxx

Castle said...

Good morning Texie, we are just checking in, making sure you and your family know that we are thinking of you and sending you so many purrs.

We hope you had a beautiful night together...xxx

Anita said...

It's a hard decision to make...

We send to you and your family very strong, hugs and purrrrrrs.

Rosie(who else?) said...

......you are very, very brave....

JB's Big World said...

Hi Texas,
I just read about you, and I am so sorry to hear you are ill. I think it sounds like you have a wonderful mom and dad and you had the best forever home.
Purrs and hugs,
JB